Friday, December 30, 2016
Digitalized photo by S. Auberle
January One
Another year to mend
those fences if you can,
those tattered
hearts, to water grass on this side
till it's as green
as the other.
Let us have champagne
and pickled herring,
a chunk of rye
bread and poems for breakfast.
Let that pale sun
rise far to the south
and ice creep up
north windows.
My African friend says
I
wish u best of d best…
Funny how beliefs fall
away as we age---
dreams, ideas,
salvations,
all dropped along
the way
till there's just
this --
cold ash in the
fireplace
an empty wine
bottle,
still there are rainbows
scattered on the ceiling
from a crystal someone gave me
long ago, and hope --
always there is hope --
that this year will bring us peace
and that thing we most desire
and may they be the same,
forever may they be the same.
Saturday, December 17, 2016
The Morning After
Photo by S. Auberle
On a morning like this, after you awaken to the
deep silence of snow, the first thing is to dress in your warmest red robe and tall,
furry boots. Yes, in the house, boots
are necessary till the chill of the rooms is lessened. Then you must prepare a steaming bowl of
oatmeal and top it with a pat of real butter, some brown sugar, warmed blueberries,
a handful of nuts and, lastly, some honest cream. With this in hand you go to your favorite
chair by the window and watch the light come up on the pristine, trackless
snow. Even the footprints of the deer
you saw last night in the storm, nibbling at the bird feeders seeds, are
erased. No cars, no plow has gone by
yet. It is just you and the peace of
winter. You remember other snow times,
perhaps you as a child, making snow angels, sledding that steep hill down
toward the creek and missing it, usually.
That pungent wet smell of wool mittens and ice-encrusted snow suits. Maybe the time you sat with your golden dog on
a bench, staring at the white canvas before you, mourning your mother. The
evening walks you would take with her after a fresh snowfall, with the scent of
pinyon fires all around. Now no one any
more to tell you to be careful out there,
and put on your mittens… The winters
you spent in the Colorado and Arizona mountains come to mind now, with those tall Ponderosa pines framing peaks
out your window. Your clumsy attempts at
skiing. Nights in front of the fire and
the Christmas tree, with loved ones now gone from your life. All this just waiting for you to return back
to those other times…forgetting the power losses, the icy turnover, the off
road slides, an unforgiving ditch or two.
Happily gone, forgotten -- remaining only peace, a lightening in the eastern
sky and a steaming, hearty bowl of oatmeal. . .
Monday, November 14, 2016
Photo by S. Auberle
And Still, the Roses
Rising this morning at my usual
time before dawn, I look out the window to see a small light moving down the road,
slowly, but steadily forward. The beacon
of it lights only one or two steps ahead.
Clearly, it's a walker at this early hour when the dark is deepest. Man or woman, I can't tell. But they seemed determined, holding a steady
pace, and I marvel at their sure steps in such blackness.
There have been great winds
blowing across the land for days. Some
are gleefully calling them winds of change.
Many are calling them winds of mourning.
All the while a great moon is setting out over the bay, leaving behind
its faint glow. Across the
pewter-colored sky, light is rising in the east.
Later, passing by Joel's Coffee
Shop, I notice pink roses still blooming in his front garden. At our Sunday gathering deep purple
chrysanthemums adorn the small altar.
Next to me sits my friend, who
grew up in Nazi-occupied Denmark. She is
very frightened today, as am I, and no words of comfort come to me that will
reassure her. We, and the congregation,
look to our speaker this morning for words of wisdom, for help on how to find
good in this dark time. It is written that everything is holy he
says. Everything is a miracle. I
want to believe this, take these words into my heart to help me go
forward. It feels nearly
impossible. I think of the walker this
morning with that small light shining out ahead into darkness. I don't know if it was man, woman, or
angel. I hold onto this picture for
now. I embrace it till I can believe
again that everything is holy and
that there are miracles all around us, if only we have the eyes to see.
For now, it is November, winter
is near upon us. Yet still, small roses
are blooming before the time of long dark settles in …
~ Sharon Auberle
November 13, 2016
Thursday, March 24, 2016
Good Friday
Art by S. Auberle
ON GOOD FRIDAY AT CALVARY CEMETERY
Mary Theresa is being laid to rest.
Out north of town the mountain
towers, brown in a dry season,
only a pale crown of white at the peak.
Mourners are gathering at the casket
while I chase my granddaughter
over graves warm in the afternoon sun.
In her dress the color of the sky,
she is a small chalice, filled with light.
Mariah is just learning language
and over and over she calls out
her newest word … angel
…
She sees angels everywhere --
holding a delicate egg in Easter grasses,
offering a tulip, next to the small Pinocchio
guarding a spirit child, but she only bends to look,
knowing someone needs it more than her.
Mariah hugs a teddy bear, abandoned carelessly,
as a baby would have left it in life,
dances with windchimes hanging from branches,
considers the lilies beneath and
watching her, I feel the weight of mortality
slipping from my shoulders,
down into the warm earth that waits for Mary,
where Isaac and Jincy, Elijah and Annie,
Leo and Baby Annalise already rest and I,
walking quickly past their stones,
whisper my apologies.
Bird, Mariah sings, and tree
and behind me there is weeping
and a faint prayer drifting on the wind
off the mountain.
My long black skirt
holds me back, but I want to run
away from Death's empty vessel,
up to that snowy peak, see Seraphim
and white rabbits and risen gods,
hear Mary laugh once more and tell me
if you're
lucky enough to be born Irish
then you're
lucky enough …
Yet might this not be heaven right down here?
Could this be all that is really needed --
this lucky moment when my arms are filled
with singing child and sunlight
and silky mountain breezes?
~ S. Auberle
an old piece, but one that calls to me this Easter season..
~ S. Auberle
an old piece, but one that calls to me this Easter season..
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
CHIMAYO, HOW IT USED TO BE
Photo by S. Auberle
after my recent visit to Chimayo, I have to post this old piece...
after my recent visit to Chimayo, I have to post this old piece...
CHIMAYO
Down Juan Medina road, I drive into the small green
valley of Chimayo on a hot, August day at noon.
Father Rocca's mission bell is chiming twenty one times as I find an old
stone bench near a statue of the crucified Christ, to eat my chicken burrito
with green chile and a bowl of Leona's fine posole. Giant cottonwoods shade me, the acequia sings
quietly over stones. Christ looks on,
heavily laden with rosaries and photos, notes and message-inscribed rocks at
His feet. Doves coo softly from the
tower. Across the road, under the Holy
Chile sign, Carlos beckons me--come in and taste his chile, he says. Inside I meet his mama, feeding a child. Do what
you love--it is good for you and those you love. Though I didn't ask, Carlos seems
compelled to give me advice--everybody
hurry--not good. It occurs to me
that I'll be unable to leave without a purchase of his chile and so I buy a
small bag. Ah, a picnic! Carlos beams--with one of those little transistor radios,
you know--the kind with just two batteries, a bottle of Cappellini wine--mix my
chile with a little bit of honey, put on some fish and grill them… He takes my hand then, looking into my eyes
for the longest time. I'm not sure how
to escape, but finally Mama clears her throat and I turn back into the hot
afternoon wondering what just happened.
Christ is still there, under the cottonwood; Father Rocca is crossing
the dusty plaza and down along the acequia a faint, tinny music is playing--exactly
like one of those little transistor radios…
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Christmas Eve
Photo by S. Auberle
My traditional Christmas Eve message, a day early this year, as I'll be busy tomorrow eve. Fra Giovanni's letter, written in 1513, still says all I would like to say, only better. I wish for you, my friends, a peaceful and blessed holiday, and drink a toast to your health and happiness in 2016!
I salute you. I am your friend and my love for you goes deep. There is nothing I can give you which you have not got. But there is much, very much, that while I cannot give it, you can take. No heaven can come to us unless our hearts find rest in today. Take heaven! No peace lies in the future which is not hidden in this present little instance. Take peace! The gloom of the world is but a shadow. Behind it, yet within our reach, is joy. Take joy! Life is so full of meaning and purpose, so full of beauty...that you will find earth but cloaks your heaven. Courage then to claim it, that is all! And so I greet you, with profound esteem and with the prayer that for you, now and forever, the day breaks and the shadows flee away.
~ Fra Giovanni, Christmas Eve, 1513
My traditional Christmas Eve message, a day early this year, as I'll be busy tomorrow eve. Fra Giovanni's letter, written in 1513, still says all I would like to say, only better. I wish for you, my friends, a peaceful and blessed holiday, and drink a toast to your health and happiness in 2016!
I salute you. I am your friend and my love for you goes deep. There is nothing I can give you which you have not got. But there is much, very much, that while I cannot give it, you can take. No heaven can come to us unless our hearts find rest in today. Take heaven! No peace lies in the future which is not hidden in this present little instance. Take peace! The gloom of the world is but a shadow. Behind it, yet within our reach, is joy. Take joy! Life is so full of meaning and purpose, so full of beauty...that you will find earth but cloaks your heaven. Courage then to claim it, that is all! And so I greet you, with profound esteem and with the prayer that for you, now and forever, the day breaks and the shadows flee away.
~ Fra Giovanni, Christmas Eve, 1513
Monday, December 07, 2015
In Memoriam
Photo by S. Auberle
~ Sharon Auberle
an old poem I haven't posted for awhile, but it seems a good time to do so...
DECEMBER, 1941
I imagine my mother that night
December 7, 1941,
listening to the
radio:
Glenn Miller’s String
of Pearls,
Edward
R. Murrow, wishing the world
good night and
good luck,
breaking news…
the bombing of Pearl
Harbor.
My mother’s hands
are folded
on the mound that is
me,
that pulsating cord
connecting us.
Do I sense her fear,
feel the tightening,
the pain?
Beneath her dress I
float,
extending a hand, a
foot now and then,
wanting reassurance,
perhaps
that all will be
well
and my mother
strokes her belly,
thinking of Japanese
women
and their babies
soon to be born,
as I will be three
months later…
I have not yet lived
long enough
to see world peace.
So many never have the
chance.~ Sharon Auberle
an old poem I haven't posted for awhile, but it seems a good time to do so...
Thursday, December 03, 2015
NO MAN'S LAND
Mixed Media by S. Auberle
~ Sharon
Auberle
NO MAN’S LAND
December 24, 1914 – the last known Christmas Truce
Somewhere in Belgium
a German soldier, his face
not so different from yours,
lays down his gun
steps out of the trenches
and begins singing…
Stille
Nacht, heilige Nacht,
Alles in
schlaft, einsam wacht
The man is very cold
and very, very brave.
In the stink of blood and mud
he knows what love is.
He listens for the hiss of bullets,
the rattle of artillery fire,
then realizes the night has grown silent.
‘round
yon Virgin, Mother and child
Holy
Infant so tender and mild
Other soldiers join him
in that No Man’s Land between,
their raw voices cracking in the cold.
Soon British soldiers begin
laying down their weapons,
joining in the hymn.
They bring gifts
of cigarettes and drinks to share.
Perhaps the men touch,
reach out shaking hands
that no longer hold death,
instead, pour tin cups of whiskey,
send smoke up to the stars
like prayers to a god, in whom,
forever after, if they survive,
they want to still believe.
Sleep in
heavenly peace…
Thursday, November 26, 2015
THANKS GIVING
Photo by S. Auberle
an old post, yes, but a good one for Thanksgiving...
Friend, the road is the destination…so they say, but my destination this
morning is a sunny meadow. The air is
crisp, a bit of frost lingers on leaves beneath my feet and a little north wind
teases at me. Across the field, and into
crow-talking woods for a while--I am warmer in here, out of the wind. The trail winds deeper through tall trees,
past old settlers' discard heaps. The
crows and I converse for a while, then, wing to wing, they fly off into late autumn
blue, and I return to the dry grass meadow and its ancient apple trees. Here and there hangs a yellow or red globe, a
bright spot of color in the dead branches.
Garlands of bittersweet drape their bright orange against a cerulean
sky. Small, abandoned nests dot the
trees and a mud-dauber house hangs heavy in a branch, its swirls and patterns exquisitely fashioned. At my feet grasses are hollowed out, where
deer have bedded down in the night. A
dog barks somewhere, far off. I am just
another child grown old, yet my heart still beats, lungs take in air, legs
carry me over the land--what gifts--what blessings! The fourteenth century mystic, Meister
Eckhart, said if the only prayer you said
in your whole life was thank you, it would suffice. And today I kneel in cold grass, whispering
my two word love poem…over and over and over.
Happy Thanksgiving to all my family and friends...
an old post, yes, but a good one for Thanksgiving...
THANKSGIVING PRAYER
Among other wonders of our lives, we are
alive with one another,
we walk here in the light of this unlikely
world that isn't ours for long.
~ John Daniel
Happy Thanksgiving to all my family and friends...
Sunday, November 08, 2015
FOR ANNIE
Photo by S. Auberle
Annie turns 99 today -- soon she'll be just
another star, looking down and wondering what on earth all the fuss was
about. Her house is filled with paper
lanterns, her black and white photos, rocks and bones and birdwings. For her birthday I think I'll take her a
bowl of sweet cherries, though she never believed that about life. Just like she never believed she'd live to be
99. Survived cancer twice, heart
attacks, yet whenever you left, instead of goodbye, Annie always said cheers!
As if it was enough to wish it, she didn't have to believe. On the day Pavarotti died, she called to tell
me that once, upon hearing him in person, she nearly fainted. These days small Annie grows smaller by the
moment, and rarely speaks. Perhaps,
after all this time, there is nothing left to say. Annie has fierce masks hanging on her walls
and owls watch her, she once said, from the forest outside her windows. I don't know for sure if she speaks their
language, but it wouldn't surprise me.
Or dragonfly, perhaps. I asked
Annie one day if she believed in a god.
I don't remember her answer, but I doubt that she does. Maybe as her time draws near, she's reconsidering that. Or perhaps she's just
enjoying this cool west wind today that sets the lanterns to dancing and the
birdwings preparing to take flight…
(I wrote this piece a few months back, Annie died yesterday)
RIP Annie R. 1916-2015
ALMOST CENTENARIAN
(I wrote this piece a few months back, Annie died yesterday)
RIP Annie R. 1916-2015
Thursday, October 01, 2015
AUTUMN MORNING
Photo art by S. Auberle
AUTUMN MORNING
fine as any
ever seen
you step out
your door
breathe smile
at your good fortune
to be alive
and then
in the orchard
you see her
a doe limping pitifully
among the trees
her delicate foreleg
bent and broken…
no graceful leap
away into sunrise
no flag of white
tail
flashing
only her neck
bowed weary
you want so badly
to do something…
enfold her in your
arms
feed and heal her
you try to grasp
how such a thing
can be on a day
as fine as this
but the best you can
do
is understand…
we will all break
someday
and for now
let the good fortune
of your day
begin ...
Thursday, August 13, 2015
FOR VINCENT
Photo by S. Auberle
I imagine you, Vincent,
I imagine you, Vincent,
on a summer morning
in your village in Provence,
whispering to yourself,
arranging sunflowers
in a cracked, blue vase.
I see you painting them,
over and over—your symbols of hope
that you will awaken one day
into a sunny world,
leaving behind your darkness
of potato eaters and crows.
But o, Vincent,
how brief the dance…
how quickly blossoms fade,
leaving only hope behind
and a trail of yellow petals
to follow into the sun.
Saturday, August 01, 2015
MOONSTRUCK
Photo by S. Auberle
How to Photograph the Moon
first, of course, you must be naked
even on a cold night
yes
you may wear a long coat
but naked is the good way
then you must laugh
and pray maybe
both at once
singing is good too
and drumming
to the beat of your heart
all this must happen before
you get out the camera…
next whisper to
Her
say you understand
her longing her
loneliness
her wistful gaze at Jupiter
high above who
seems
in ignorance of her charm
she will reward you
with her brightest light
knowing you understand
this fragile territory of love
Saturday, July 18, 2015
WHAT I WOULD LIKE
Photo by S. Auberle
I would like to have Makepeace
for my middle name
like William Thackeray
and I would like to think he did ...
I would like the sky
to always be that shade
of golden peach
shining at 5:00 this morning
I should like for everyone
to have a lemon tree
in their backyard because
lemon juice is good for everything
and a wild garden to turn
cocoons into butterflies ...
lastly I would like soft shawls for all
to wrap up little dogs
who tremble terribly when it storms
and need you to soothe them
whisper over and over
everything's gonna be alright ...
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
EARTH DAY 2015
Photo by S. Auberle
- Sharon
Auberle
PRAYER FOR VILLAGE EARTH
Mother Earth, we pray today
to join with our brothers
and sisters
in the company of whom we
share this web of life.
We will not take from you
lightly, nor do harm.
We will respect those
creatures with whom we live.
Wolf, Hawk, Turtle and Bear,
we honor you
and all our four-legged
brothers and sisters.
Bless us, please, you Flying
People,
Crawling People, the Swimmers,
Plant and Tree People.
Father Sun, we beseech you
to shine down your light
upon us.
Sister Rain and Brother
Wind, walk softly here,
for we are small beneath
your power.
Sister Moon, shine gently
as you guide us into dreamtime,
and when you journey across
the world,
send your stars to light our
way home.
Mother Earth, accept our
prayer,
bless us with your energy
and healing.
Help us remember that we are
connected
to all who share your sacred
web of life—past,
present, and future—that in
divinity
we may exist as one…
Thursday, April 16, 2015
MASQUERADE
Digital collage by S. Auberle ~"Masquerade"
multi-media, hand colored pastel & watercolor
multi-media, hand colored pastel & watercolor
MASQUERADE
She believed long ago
that every one except her knew
something she didn’t…
Important people knew,
successful people knew,
nuns and priests,
in their stern pulpits knew…
how to go through this world
purely, with wisdom the girl felt
she would never possess.
It seemed to her that she was broken
or missing something and, somehow,
needed to be fixed.
The masks were available
as she grew, and like other women
in that time and place,
she chose several…good girl,
good wife, good mother.
They never quite fit.
She couldn’t see well in them,
but it didn’t matter--this way
no one would know her true self.
With her vision askew,
the woman didn’t realize
that other people wore masks—
crooked ones, shabby ones,
masks that had
fallen,
been trampled on the ground.
But this is no new story
and I wish I could tell you a happy ending…
I can’t. Except
that
even the finest masks wear out.
Feathers and jewels drop, one by one.
The edges tatter and tear, till
one day, the masquerade ends.
The woman sees her face,
naked, scarred, criss-crossed
with living. She
touches herself,
tenderly, to be sure….and finds herself
whole and beautiful.
She was never
broken.
Friday, March 13, 2015
A CAROUSEL STATE OF MIND
Photo by S. Auberle
A CAROUSEL STATE OF MIND
in response to the painting "Winter
Carousel"
by Robert William Addison
In the deep of winter it may come to you,
as though sent by wizards who know
the human heart can grow cold,
in need of small magicks…
say on a February day, perhaps,
when the season begins to hurt,
out of the blue you will catch a melody,
hear the prancing of riderless horses
and the bitter wind will soften,
frosty edges of your heart begin to melt.
Suddenly it is summer, and you are ready
to begin the whirling dance once more…Saturday, January 31, 2015
WINTER BLUES
Photo by S. Auberle
BLUE IS A FUGITIVE COLOR
It is the color of ambiguous depth,
BLUE IS A FUGITIVE COLOR
It is the color of ambiguous depth,
of the heavens and of the abyss at once…
~ Alexander Theroux
do you remember that night
I said I would have to leave?
under a blue moon
in Clem & Ursie's Bar
you asked would I walk toward
something
or away
and I
said a horizon
is what I need
a road rising to meet me...
Dante's 9th Circle of Hell isn't fire
but ice
yet
blue light
has the energy to escape ice
and remain visible
too
often invisible to you
I became
I became
blue
is a fugitive color
fades quicker than any other
Monday, January 19, 2015
ODE TO BOSTICK
Photo from the Internet
Okay, so any of you who know me know that until I moved to Wisconsin I couldn't have cared less about football...but then I fell into caring...about the Packers (especially #12) and after Sunday's game I wish I was back to not caring. But o well, que sera sera, as they say, and then this poem seemed to want to be written...
Okay, so any of you who know me know that until I moved to Wisconsin I couldn't have cared less about football...but then I fell into caring...about the Packers (especially #12) and after Sunday's game I wish I was back to not caring. But o well, que sera sera, as they say, and then this poem seemed to want to be written...
ODE TO BOSTICK
doesn't matter if you don't know
who Bostick is
this isn't about him
it's about screwing up
we've all done it
badly admit it you have
I have even Mother Theresa
I suspect
Bostick we feel for you
more than you know
sure you coulda' done better
coulda' shoulda' woulda'
if only so what
we do the damn best we can
nobody can do more
not even the pope
not even Mother Theresa
and she'd be the first
to tell you about that guy
in the gutter she missed one day
so Bostick it's okay
nobody died
so Bostick it's okay
nobody died