PHILIAS AND PHOBIAS

Photo by S. Auberle

PHILIAS AND PHOBIAS 

               phobias:  aversions and fears

               philias:  attractives & positive feelings 

I'm old        yes old enough

that if I died tomorrow

not one would say

pity        she died too young… 

I suppose there's some comfort

in that       small at best

but another comfort might be
that by now I've tried out

and worn out all my phobias

found them meaningless

paper scarecrows dancing

in the wind       except the last one 

which I don't even want to mention

but you know the one I mean

and yes I'm still scared big time

of that and if you're not 

tell me why not        and how you got

that way        unscared        I mean

and why have none of my people

come back to tell me don't worry baby 

it's all right       nothing to be afraid of

like they used to        and wrap shiny pennies

in my clenched fists        dry my tears

and send me back out 

into that enormous sunny world

where philias abound and never end

and I don't know any more than my dog

about what's coming for me        one day